Sahaj & Me [按此看中文版]
I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an environmental researcher, a pianist, a dog-owner......and most of all, a Sahaj yogini.
I've loved music all my life. When I was still a pre-schooler, I used to teach my mom whatever little songs I learnt at kindergarten so that we could sing them together (properly with all the body movements and everything). I learnt to play the keyboard when I was 3 or 4, because my dad had a keyboard at home. He also owned a guitar, a set of drums, a 1st-generation karaoke sing-along-song player, a huge hi-fi and many many records (now CDs) at home. He was kind of a big influence on me in terms of music, and that's probably how I got exposed to so many different genres of music, especially jazz. However, the keyboard playing didn't last. But I've always enjoyed singing. I was in the school choir in both primary and secondary schools. I picked up piano playing when I was around 11, and this hobby had persisted for 7 years until I graduated from high school with an 8th-grade piano performance certificate in Australia. I was a keyboard player of the school's jazz band at the time, and I learnt to play a little bit of oboe also. I really wanted to study music in the university then, but I knew I'll never be good enough to make a living out of it, so I chose engineering instead. That's when I stopped playing.
I also remember that there was this music therapy course that I really wanted to take because the idea of healing people through music was very appealing to me. 10 years later, I found my answer. I started playing the harmonium due to influences of Sahaja Yoga, and the "music spirit" that has been dormant in me for 10 years was once again awakened. It is not until I came to Sahaja Yoga did I realize that music not only could heal people, but also raise the kundalini within us and give us self-realization. You'd know the power of the bhajans if you've listened to them.
I got my self-realization on Feb 17 2003, which was my rebirth. Does that make me an Aquarius instead of the steady, persistent, ambitious and responsible Capricorn? 
I don't know. But I do know that the signs don't matter anymore, as I've finally found my true self. "Know thyself" has become my motto. Sahaja Yoga is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I've tried various kinds of meditation, chi gong, all kinds of new age stuff, but after years of seeking, I've finally found it. This is it. In Sahaja Yoga, I found peace, love and joy. All the wonders of Sahaja Yoga cannot be described but experienced. Externally, I might not have changed that much, but inside, I'm starting to see myself very clearly, even things that I do not want to face. However, to recognize the problems is only the first step. Now that I know what my problems are, I can work on them, with the love and support from my brothers and sisters. On the other hand, I'm starting to see beauty in every person, which was once quite difficult for me with a big ego. 
As Shri Mataji said, everyone of us is a beautiful gem, so we'd shine even brighter when we're put together, and thus there's really no need for us to compare ourselves with or be jealous of others. I now understand the essence and the power of collectivity.
Through Sahaja Yoga, I've also found myself the most loving family in the whole world. The Hong Kong collective is so wonderful that it puts a smile on my face whenever I think of them. This feeling was even stronger when Shri Mataji visited us on Dec 1 - 4 2003. The bond between each and every one of us were ever so strong that we're all like different parts of Her body that worked so well together to perform Her divine tasks. Yogis from different countries were either staying at the hotel or the ashram to help out or meditate throughout the 4 days, and we're simply enjoying each others' company and vibrations like one big family. The "oneness" was absolutely amazing. Just imagine if the whole world could behave like that!
And best of all, I don't have to compromise anything to be in Sahaja Yoga. In contrary, Sahaja Yoga is like the essence of everything. It can be applied in everything we do in our everyday life, so that we play our part better, whatever our role should be. As Edwin (my Rakhi brother) says all the time, if you're a Christian, you become a better Christian in Sahaj; if you're a Buddhist, you become a better Buddhist, and so on. This is particularly important for someone like me, because I have sooooo many different interests in life. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, I sincerely urge you to come to our weekly program to obtain your self-realization and experience it yourself. All knowledge is FREE for the asking.
Eugena
Dec '03
霎哈嘉與我 [Click here to read English version]
我們每個人每天都扮演著不同的角色。好像我，除了是一個女兒、姊妹、朋友、同事、一個環保科研人員……之外，更是一個霎哈嘉瑜伽練習者。
從小到大，我都很熱愛音樂。記得當我還在念幼稚園時，每天放學後都會嗆著要教媽媽唱我當日學過的新歌 ( 還配合了一整套的動作、或舞步 ) ，好讓我能帶領她一同載歌載舞。由於爸爸擁有一台電子琴，而他當時又沒有空彈，於是便讓我到藝術中心去學電子琴，只是當年本人僅得 3 、 4 歲，要站著彈才能踩得到琴下面那些腳踏。其實除了電子琴外，爸爸還擁有過兩套鼓、兩支結他、第一代卡拉 OK 唱機 ( 要播錄音帶並自己看歌書跟著唱那種 ) 、還有很多很多唱片 ( 可惜後來大部份都被白蟻蛀壞了 ) 。因此，我從小便接觸到很多不同類型的音樂，尤其是爵士樂。所以，他算得上是我在音樂方面發展的重大影響。可惜我的電子琴生涯不足一年便結束了。不過我還是很愛唱歌，所以念小學和中學時都有參加詩歌班代表學校比賽。 11 歲那年我決定要學鋼琴，直至到 7 年後當我中學畢業，在澳洲考取了 8 級鋼琴演奏資格後便沒有再練習了。其實在澳洲念高中時，除了選理科外，我還修讀了音樂，參加了學校的爵士樂隊，負責彈電子琴；還學了一陣子雙簧管，因為我曾希望報讀大學裡的音樂治療課程。當時我認為能夠以自己的興趣來幫助別人實在是一舉兩得，可是由於自問自己的音樂造藝和天份始終有限，將來未必能以音樂謀生，最終還是選讀了機械工程。之後，我也很少再彈鋼琴了。
十年後，我的願望真的實現了。在偶然的機會下我來到霎哈嘉瑜伽、並為他們的拜讚歌團彈奏風琴 (harmonium)。那沉睡在我體內的靈量及音樂細胞都重新被喚醒起來。接觸了拜讚歌後我才發現原來音樂除了有治療心靈的功效外，還能夠提昇我們的靈量 (kundalini)，讓我們得到自覺。相信曾經聽過拜讚歌的人都感受過這種音樂的神聖力量。
2003年2月17日我得到了我的自覺，亦即是我的重生。那我豈不是由一個平實、穩重、堅毅、志向遠大、有責任感、充滿優點的山羊座，變成了水瓶座？不過無論是甚麼星座都已經不再重要，因為我已找到了真我。「了解真我」成為了我的座右銘。來到霎哈嘉瑜伽是我一生中最大的福份。以前我曾經學過各式各樣其他的功法，但經過多年的尋尋覓覓，我終於找到了霎哈嘉瑜伽，找到了真理。在霎哈嘉瑜伽裡，我體會到平安、喜樂、和愛。不過，霎哈嘉瑜伽的許多美妙之處，都只能親身體驗，不能言傳。表面上，我的改變可能並不大，但我開始能夠清晰的觀照自己的內在，包括那些我不想面對的瑕疵。但承認自己的問題也只不過是第一步。當知道自己的問題所在後，便能夠對症下藥。幸好身邊有一班支持和愛護我的兄弟姊妹和我一起昇進。而另一方面，我開始懂得欣賞身邊每個人的內在美，因為我不再像以前那麼自我(並非完全沒有我執，只是沒有以往那麼嚴重)。正如Shri Mataji說過，我們每個人都分別是不同的寶石，放在一起時更加奪目耀眼，因此我們彼此根本無須互相比較或妒忌。我現在終於明白到群體的重要性。
藉著霎哈嘉瑜伽，我找到我最親愛的家人，每次想起他們都會令我會心微笑。尤其是Shri Mataji在2003年12月1 – 4日訪港期間，我們兄弟姊妹間的聯繫更是緊密，就好像Shri Mataji身體的不同部份一同運作去達成祂的意願一樣。在那短短數天之中，我們都聚合在酒店幫忙或在靈舍一塊兒入靜，來自不同國家的練習者朝夕相見，仿如一個大家庭一般。那種「一體」的感覺實在很美妙。試想像如果整個世界都能夠如此融洽該多好！
而霎哈嘉瑜伽最美麗的地方是：我們並不須要作出任何犧牲；相反，霎哈嘉瑜伽正是萬事萬物的精髓所在。霎哈嘉瑜伽的知識可以應用在我們生活的每一方面，從而使我們把自己的角色演得更好、更精彩。正如我的義兄Edwin經常提到：「基督徒來到霎哈嘉瑜伽會成為更好的基督徒，佛教徒會成為更出色的佛教徒……等等。」這方面對我尤其重要，因為我這個人很「多元化」，霎哈嘉瑜伽能使我在各方面都做得更好。如果你還是不太明白我所說的話，我衷心的希望你會抽空參加我們每週都有舉辦的免費靜坐班，來感受得到自覺的喜樂。所有知識免費傳授。
Eugena
2003年12月